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disturbing dreams again [May. 21st, 2009|03:21 am]
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Had that dream again... where I was in the marines, and I had gone off to fight and been captured. For simplicity's sake, we'll say Iraq. I had dreamed that I was one of those POW's you see on gritty Al-Jazeera broadcasts, and I was beaten, bruised and bleeding badly, and as my captors were reading some ransom note to the camera, I looked up just long enough to catch the butt of a rifle to the eye. I fell down.

And then I wake up.

Good thing I was born crippled, huh?

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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-21 04:52 pm (UTC)
When you woke up did you do that "AH HOLY FUCK CAN'T BREATHE" thing? I get that with falling/splatting, crushed or stabbed to death type dreams...0_o

"For simplicity's sake" o_0 Hmm, thank you for catering to our aversion to complexity.

If our minds were decent at all. In your next dream you'd be Tony Stark...but your more likely to get eaten by a bear or something.

The internet *cough*and saitta*cough* think dying in your dreams means that your disconnecting from your emotions. The internet also wants me to believe if I click now I'll get a million dollars. Fuck the subconscious.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-22 04:48 pm (UTC)
SOMETIMES I do, but most times I just wake up, realize where I am, then it's all good. And I have a lot of death dreams, actually, so after awhile it doesn't alarm me as much, unless its particularly disturbing.

Lol yes, complex bad! *smashes desk* Oh if I was Tony Stark, I would rule the world lol. Damn Iron Man. That movie reignited my love of computers, after years of torture in computer science beat it out of me.

E..mo..tions? What are these strange things you speak of? haha ;)
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 03:44 am (UTC)
The very few times I get into full out REM sleep are usually freaky enough to make me scream upon waking....it's not even scary half the time. Sometimes my brain just tries to give me the willies.

It's sad that ass kickass as Tony can be and as awesome as the movie was ...Batman will still beat his ass. Especially since I can tolerate the actor changes in his movie. I'm still pissy about losing Terrance Howard. At least Don Cheadley(sp?) is better then Josh Hartnett rumored to be in Thor...I would stab somebody if Josh Hartnett got in another comic movie...I still haven't seen 30 Days of Night because I fear his suckery.

TERMINATOR TERMINATOR TERMINATOR TERMINATOR....ummm that never happened.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 03:53 am (UTC)
How are your sleep habits? Do you get a full nights rest often, or is it just that actual REM sleep escapes you?

You know, that's an interesting debate...I'm not sure who would win there. I'm leaning towards Batman, but that's mostly because he just has so many badass points its ridiculous...not to mention my thing for Catwoman...mmm...Catwoman... >D lol

I haven't really read anything on it yet, but I gotta say I'm pissed about that. Don Cheadle is a decent actor though, so it's not like we get shit for it.

*Covers ears* LALALALALALALALA what terminator? LALALALALA!!!
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 04:24 am (UTC)
My sleep habits were always pretty bad as a kid. That whole tuck your kid into bed thing was actually serious for me. I have to wrap my legs down tight enough so they dont flail about. I still get up at least ten times a night. I've trained my body to run on no sleep. It only got worse in high school when I was bouncing around from seizure med to seizure med and had way to much on my mind. I can't get restful enough or stop my brain from running and making lists and shit. Most nights I sleep like a fish shutting like half my brain down enough to get rested but not fully losing control. That's mainly why I can sleep on the train (which freaks saiita the fuck out)

Catwomen was on the tv the other day. My mother decided the one part of the plot she couldnt believe was Halle Berry squeezing her boobs and ass through the prison bars. *le sigh*..............I took a Badass quiz on facebook...me and my pops got Wolverine....my mom got Chuck Norris....we need to keep an eye on her.

I came to terms and I'm not angry anymore cause at least he can act but I'm still pissy that he isn't a good looking Rhodes...thats like half his point in the comic to be Tony's good looking wingman.

Good boy, you just keep singing while I go steal John Conner.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 04:46 am (UTC)
Sorry I'm just gettin back to ya. I had to go raid the fridge lol. Mine were never good either, but it was never that serious. I was just always a night person, even as a baby. We suspect it began with all my time in ICU since I was a preemie. Have you always had seizures then? That's gotta be 6 bitches to deal with. In recent years I've had trouble getting my brain to shut down too, I'm not worried about as much these days, but it still wont STFU lol.

*shudders* ugh...what a travesty that movie was. I only went to see Halle Berry in the catsuit lol. I much prefer Michelle Pfeifer. I think I took that same quiz, but I got Gambit. Not bad if I do say so ;) Chuck Norris? That's...frightening lol. Did you know he's so tough, there's no chin under his beard? Only another fist...

LOL you go ahead and steal him. But be easy on him. remember, he is responsible for the salvation of our race. He can't save us if you crush his pelvis now can he? ;)
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 05:19 am (UTC)
*commits own fridge raid leaves germs on the communal soda bottle leaves with smile* Can't have dinner prepared, can't have germ free soda then.

Do you have issues with hospitals now? I spent time last year under observation and it was terrible. The confinement (the electrodes tapped into/onto my scalp were plugged into the wall) drove me nuts? Plus it freaked my mom way more then it did me so it was bothersome watching her.

I haven't a clue how long I've had them. I have memories from childhood that could have been seizures but it's nothing I can confirm... even after having my brain monitored they can't tell me what kind of seizures are happening. I had one in a post office alone once and nealry passed out. The ER resident called them "events" and my mother asked where the fucking ballons were? They told me I have the weirder odder symptoms, that it's internal so go ahead an flash lights at me all day nothing will happen and that it's in the frontal lobe that the weird activity happens. I never saw doctors often as a kid. I only went into the hospital because severely weird shit like blackouts, twitching, super tension, and crazy sensory shit and the inability to communicate happened and kept increasing while I was in high school. The meds I'm on know though control it. The twitching is small enough to keep doing w.e. I'm doing and I just have to warn the people around me incase my balance goes off. Plus the side effects in comparison to other meds are tolerable so I can't complain at all.

Finally! Somebody that appreciates Michelle Pfeifer.
Gambit was my second favorite in the original animated cartoon. They screwed him up in the newer cartoons.
When Chuck Norris does a pushup he isn't lifting himself up he's pushing the earth down.

"He can't save us if you crush his pelvis now can he? ;)" Hysterical painful laughter. Ouch I need new ribs.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 06:24 pm (UTC)
LOL I have to do the same thing to my food to keep my mother from stealing it. It seems to be the only deterrent that works. I only have issues with Children's Hospital in Detroit, which in turn gave me a complex about Detroit I only figured out a few years ago. Everytime we went there when I was a kid, it usually meant I was getting cut open, so for a long time, going to Detroit used to almost make me physically ill. But in general no, hospitals I'm ok with, cuz I spent so much time there. I remember when I was 8 or so, the nurses would be screaming at me to take my pain meds, but I didnt want em. I felt fine. Yay pain tolerance LOL!!! I think the only thing that drove my mother nuts was just after I was born, they had to put an IV in my head or something, and comapred to my tiny body, the sight of that huge needle in my head drove her nuts, so someone had the brilliant idea of putting a dixie cup on my head like a hat to cover it lol!

That's really odd that they can't figure out what's going on. Then again, who said doctors know everything? According to them, I wasn't supposed to make it, never suppposed to walk, and apparently I'm supposed to be sitting in some home drooling on myself. And I swear if I ever meet that doctor again I'll kick his ass! At least you've got it under control though, so you're functional. I got twitches too sometimes, and its really annoying, but such is life.

Oh yeah, Michelle's version of Catwoman was just...damn hot LOL. She added just the right amount of psycho bitch to it. And since I've broken your ribs, my work here is done now. We're all doomed cuz you gave John Connor death by snoo snoo. I HOPE YOU'RE SATISFIED! >D lol!
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-24 12:00 am (UTC)
That's supposed to stop them? I think I'd have to sit them all in the living room and make them watch as I let a rabid monkey spit on my property in order for them all not to touch it.

I only got physically ill over church. Hospitals I just avoid because the doctors are useless and annoying unless they're writing a prescription. Plus the air and mood in hospitals creeps me out a bit.
It's mind boggling why only recently have they made medical equipment sized for babies......A dixie cup *snort giggle* your poor baby-dignity. You must scowl everytime you see a fez.

Twitching....*pulls a face, shakes head, facepalms* No one I know gets just know freakin' pissed off twitches can make a person. It's either "oh poor baby" pity or "that's not so bad" idiots.

The Michelle costume was better too.
Terribly satisfied.

OH SHIT MY BREAK WAS OVER TEN MINUTES AGO. AHH *runs back to time clock*
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-24 02:32 am (UTC)
Well, seeing as I'm living with older people at the moment, it usually works. Otherwise mom is sneaking bites of my food before I get to it.

Not a big spiritual person, I take it? And yes lol, I'll sit there all day long as long as they write me a prescription (yayyy vicodin lol!!). Yeah hopsitals (yeah you read right, I said hopsital lol) are only good to go to if you want to get sick, or need a good doping up. Meh, I probably didn't care, seeing as I have no shame now. After all, I am the man who hoped in a pool in my boxers with a girl I JUST met cuz she told me "you wont." lol ;)

I can't complain about my 'cripple twitches' cuz I've seen people whose are so much worse. But I do tease my friends when it happens to them, cuz I can do that cuz I understand lol XDDDDD

Michelle's was better, but Halle's had all that ripped leather (she got away from me >D), and that was nice to lol. It may be the only redeeming quality of that movie.

LOL get back to work! Make daddy his money!!! XDDDD *runs*
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-24 05:46 am (UTC)
It's not that I'm not spiritual. I like a good bible story as much as the next person. Jesus is cool, so is Thor and that crazy hindu chick that kills dudes. I mostly dont like church because I was traumatized (not like that) by the priest that gave us or religion lessons. He brought in this fetus model and passed it around and showed all these terrifying films about not having abortions. Then in church the mood was like a funeral. When he left this new priest came that was all child friendly...he came off the altar thing and I nearly had an attack. Thankfully I appeased my mother got confirmed in a pool of our hypocrisy and dont have to ever go back.

Laugh it up, its only slowly building the basket you'll be riding to hell in. (I just got ribbons put on mine...I'm also thinking about some wicker detailing)

I asked one of my co-workers who his favorite Catwoman was today. He said Halle cause it's the only one he knew....he vaguely knew Michelle when I poked his memory and has no idea who Eartha Kitt is.....My co-workers are a black void of pop-culture.

As much as a pimp joke that sounded like I'll take it you remembered the older comment. Daddy's only management...the real boss is a douche. Therefore the less off my awesomeness he gets the better. But the longer I'm off the clock my wallet suffers. Damn his assery (fuck you little read lines telling me assery isnt a word it so should be)
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-24 05:59 am (UTC)
Ahhh so you're a Catholic, or as I like to call them, Pagans in denial, since...pretty much everything in Catholicism is stolen from Paganism lol. *shudders* how horrifying for you... If there's one thing that'll scare kids straight, its gross propaganda films! Well, maybe not me so much...I've been known to watch surgeries on TV while eating dinner. I have a strong stomach lol.

Oh it's already been decided that I'm careening towards hell in a flaming baby carriage, guzzling Southern Comfort all the way... or as my friend Nick put it: A red and white striped basket with 11 herbs and spices, as is the custom of my people. I've already been kicked out twice LMFAO. XDDDDD

DIDN'T KNOW WHO EARTHA KITT WAS?!?!?!! *trembling in anger, holds shoe as if I'm about to throw it* Do something with him lol!!

That's a fine balance you have there between your monetary needs and your tolerance of his jack-assery... I rather like the term jack-assery LOL XD
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 03:56 am (UTC)
Bitchin' new icons!
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 04:09 am (UTC)
Glad ya like the 'new' ones. They're really just old ones i'm bringing out of retirement lol. I like yours though!
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 04:31 am (UTC)
I gotta go get new/old ones from the desktop later. I'm using less then half the available icon spaces...there is something terrible wrong about that.

I miss Ren and Stimpy...that was some awesomely whacked out cartoonage.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 04:48 am (UTC)
Indeed it was! And what we saw was BY FAR the light end of it. I just got my hands on the lost episodes...Good Lord... lol
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 05:29 am (UTC)
The one in space with the icecream soap and the one with the Galapagos and the one with the butt implants...those were my favs... I watched Ren and Stimpy and Rugrats tapes back to back. Nick Nick Nick Nick na Nick Nick Nick Nickelodeon! Sploosh.
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 06:50 pm (UTC)
*holds up a bar of soap* I've had this ice cream bar since I was a CHILD! People...always trying to take it from me. Why won't they leave me ALONE!! OH NO, I know what you want! *points at you* YOU'VE coveted my ice cream bar! But it's MIIIIIINE!! Oh ice cream bar, how I love to lick your creamy center! OMMM!! *bites, chews ice cream, foams at the mouth* XDDDDDDD!!!!
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-23 11:44 pm (UTC)
OMFG, did you do that from memory? ^____^ laughs manically and gives you millions of internet points
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-23 11:55 pm (UTC)
LOL yes, yes I did, I got SpAcE mAdNeSs!!! XD

*holds up toothbrush* BACK OFF, MAN!!! Don't force me to use it!! XDDD
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-24 04:57 am (UTC)
Holy crap, your memory is scary.

Did they give you elephant genes like those Beagle puppies with sea anenome genes?
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[User Picture]From: kold_az_steel
2009-05-24 05:00 am (UTC)
Its pretty selective, actually. I REALLY have to be into something for it to stick. Damn ADD...and I'm sure all the years of head trauma didn't help either. Like the new icon? I made it after I say your reply lol
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-24 06:10 am (UTC)
I went out looking for new icons to show my approval....but then I got distracted by...(see next comment)
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[User Picture]From: anonymiss731
2009-05-24 06:12 am (UTC)
This one...I know, Ive broken the chain but it had to be done the safety of the coven depended on it...wait ummm...lets just say I watch to many movies
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